It’s a question we get all the time. ALL the time. And in general, I feel like our answers are pretty unsatisfying.
“We don’t know”, we usually reply. And we don’t, honestly. We have a few concrete dates: track select, assignment night, and graduation, but everything else is up in the air. We don’t know where we’re moving next. We don’t know what John will ultimately fly. We don’t know where we’ll be in one year, let alone five to ten.
A few years ago, I think this way of life would have frustrated me. I like planning. I like making lists and accomplishing them. I like knowing what’s next, particularly when there are major life decisions to consider.
But this uncertainty is, in many ways, a blessing because it forces us to place our trust in a sovereign God. God is in control. God is good all the time. “We know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose” (Romans 8:28). These are the truths that I repeat to myself over sinks of dirty dishes and at two in the morning staring at our ceiling fan and on long walks pushing sleeping babies. We are learning for ourselves that faith is not knowing what the future holds, but knowing who holds the future.
Without the ability to make long term plans, I realize more clearly the truth of James 4:13-15. “Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit–yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.”
All that to say, yesterday was one of those concrete dates. On the arduous journey of pilot training, track select is the fork in the road. After five months in the T-6, training continues in either the T-1, which leads to tanker/cargo aircraft or the T-38, which leads to fighter/bomber aircraft. While there are many, many factors that come into play, most will probably make little sense to people outside the pilot training community (and frankly, I’m just relieved to have this decision behind us!), so I’m going to skip to what we now know: John will complete his final phase of pilot training in the T-1.
He’s going to miss flying the T6 (below), but we’re looking forward to a few less intense weeks of academics and getting excited to start thinking about possibilities for our now ever-so-slightly-less-fuzzy- future.